17 days past IUI..

It has been 17 days past my IUI procedure and 2 days past since I started spotting and bleeding.. Today the bleeding seem to get heavier and steadier. Even though deep in my heart I am still hoping that this is not my monthly AF, but I guess the evidence tells otherwise. Apart from the weird flow of blood, I also has lost the soreness in my BBs and the cramping also has been almost nonexistence. I am crushed and down in the dumps.. Now I have to prepare myself for another round of trial and tribulation of IVF as the next step. Why is it so hard to get a baby? ( T T )

15 days past IUI..

It has been 15 days past my IUI procedure. I am now very worried because since last night some bleeding had occurred at around 7 pm. I tried to stay calm and just go about my daily routine but the fact that I bled is nagging in my head. I went to bed and woke up today and was relieved that there was no spotting. I went about my daily morning routine of ironing my work clothes and stepped into the bathroom to shower and found that there was some bleeding! Aaaaaa! I am panicking BIG TIME!

After trying to psych myself (without any success) I got ready for work with protection that women uses monthly just in case the ugly AF decided to show up (and dreading it all the way). I haven't missed taking my daily dosage of Folic Acid and my Duphaston at 8.00 am and 8.00 pm everyday (with occasional time lapse now and then that is, but still diligently everyday).

At about 9.30 am here at the office, I went to the loo and found that there was no spotting but only a little bit of a pinkish stain. I am now a bit confused and scared. Is it implantation spotting or is it the early signs of AF showing up? I called up my sister and she told me to take it easy, breathe and not to stress myself out (a hard thing to do in my case). She told me that when she had her first baby, she did bleed also but in a red jelly-like form. That had got me worried to because my bleeding is not jelly-like. It's like the early arrival of AF or the end of it. I really really really hope that this is not the case of AF for me. ( T T )

Up until today my cramping has lessened and the soreness in my BBs are still there but not quite as strong as the first week post IUI. I don't feel as bloated as the first week as well. Apart from occasional headaches and the spotting, I really feel fine. I do hope that the lack of symptoms does not lead to bad news for me. Please pray for me to get a BFP this time..

14 days past IUI..

It has been 14 days past my IUI procedure. I am now in my 2nd week of the dreaded 2 Weeks Waiting period. For the 1st week, I had experienced some mild cramping and sore BBs. This week it has been almost the same but I felt the cramping is intermittent and the soreness has lessened. Now this got me really worried because from what I've read, most women with cramping and sore BBs usually end up with big fat positive signs when they do their HPT. Lately, however, I did experience tiredness, felt slightly bloated and had a slight back pain. I am getting most of the usual symptoms when I am near the time AF comes but I hope these are all the signs that lead to a BFP this time!

The pull to do the HPT is VERY strong! I practically have to tell myself over and over again that it's too early. I hope my will power will prevail and help me not get sucked into the pee-on-a-stick rampage!

Anyway, baby dust, please come my way! ( ^-^ )

IUI Day!!

I woke up today a little bit late since I slept late last night. The prospect of my IUI procedure was hanging on my back as my dear husband and I was rushing to get ready and perform my prayers. We drove to LPPKN and stopped by a McDonald's drive-through for our breakfast on the go and ate in the car while we were stuck inside traffic. We arrived at LPPKN at 8.00 am, 30 minutes late than scheduled. Luckily the nurse at the counter was in a good mood and did not scold me or anything. I took my Duphaston while we were waiting and made a mental note not to forget this time.

My hubby and I waited for a while and then heard his name called. We were told to go up to level 7 for my hubby to produce his swimmers to be processed by the lab. After that was done, we were told to go back to level 6 for payment and then proceed back to level 7 to wait for the IUI procedure. We waited quite some time at level 6 but my name was not called. The clock was already ticking and I was getting worried. In the end I went to the nurse counter and asked about the bill. She then passed me the bill and told me to go to the payment counter. Duh!! I could have cut the waiting time shorter if only I'd asked earlier rather than waited. Huhu..

After the payment was made, we made our way back to level 7 and waited for my name to be called out. My husband was already nodding off because he stayed up late the other night doing his assignment. When my name was called, I went into the operation room and was told to lie down on my back on one of the curtained beds. Now, I have a very low pain threshold and am dreading the speculum they are going to use. I even asked the nurse whether I can be drugged so that I would not feel the pain when the speculum is inserted but she just laughed and said that I need to relax and not fight the thingamajig.. 

As I laid on the bed with my legs propped up my panic kind of build up and I was already trying to subdue my trembling. By the time the doctor came I was on the verge of a panic attack and I told my doctor about my panic state. He calmed me down and told me to take deep breaths and breath slowly. Two nurses stood by each bedside and coached me to calm down throughout the whole process. My doctor then proceeded to clean my vijayjay with warm water and then placed the speculum slowly. Surprisingly it didn't hurt as much as I anticipated but once he started to open the mouth of the speculum wide and screwing the tool to lock it in place, I started to feel pain. When the nice nurse on my right side recited my name and identification number for confirmation I was already not focusing because I was concentrating hard not to clench my muscle down there. But I did catch a glimpse of my name and confirmed. My doctor asked me to confirm my name and I hurriedly confirmed that the specimen in the small tube the nurse is holding is my husband's and my name is there on the tube.

Then the doctor proceeded to inject the sperm using a small catheter and then loosened up the speculum. The pain I felt subsided as the screw was loosened up and the speculum withdrawn out. Then my doctor told me to keep my legs bent up and lie down for 20-30 minutes. Luckily I brought a book with me this time to pass the time away. After the whole procedure and waiting is over, I was given an MC and was told to relax and try to not stress myself out. If everything goes well and Aunt Flo does not come knocking at my door this month, I am scheduled to go for a Urine Pregnancy Test on the 3rd of May.

I hope this time everything do go well and I can break great news at last to everyone for the first time. Lots of baby dust for me pretty please. Now I am embarking on the journey of the 2 weeks wait which is excrutiating on the nerves. Do pray for me ya! ( ^_^ )