Another Cycle Put On Hold..

I called up LPPKN yesterday to start another cycle since the ugly AF had shown its ugly head a few days back. I was actually at the Convention Centre setting up the protocol tagging and running here and there to get my job at hand done. In the midst of hectic madness I managed to squeeze in my phone call to LPPKN. After more than a couple of times trying to get to the Fertility Unit, I was put through and was able to talk to a nurse to set up my appointment. The nurse checked my doctor's schedule and broke the bad news to me that he is yet again unavailable this month because his calendar is already full! That means yet another cycle had to be put on wait, AGAIN! The same thing happened last month and again this month. Ramadhan is getting near so I think maybe it's going to be like last year all over again. I kind of feel sad thinking that this journey is too hard for me to take and it's taking a toll on me emotionally and physically. Plus, the waiting game DOES NOT help BIG TIME! *sigh*

I have been too busy lately with work that I don't have time for a decent rest everyday. Weekends are always hectic for me as well since lately we either travel long distance or we have to run around doing errands for others. In the crazy non-stop  and energy draining race I think I've lost a bit of myself along the way. I feel very tired, sad, hurt and lost all my drive for anything. I just want to stay home for a while but I know that's not possible.. I have to admit it.. I am officially depressed.. ( _ _ )