It Has Finally Happened..

A miracle has finally happened for my husband and I. We got pregnant!! After seven years of being married and having our honeymoon years, after a loooong trip down the infertility treatment road, we are finally blessed with a little one on our way. I am still coming to terms with the fact that our baby is growing in my belly and sometimes second guessing myself. My dear husband is taking it all in rather well. He has been very helpful and supportive of my all day and night sickness and my lack of energy to do anything.

Remember when we were in between cycles and were put on hold since April? Well, in May I tried again to get that elusive appointment from LPPKN with no luck as usual. This time around a very friendly nurse picked up the phone when I made the call. She got my medical file and perused over it after asking the usual routine question on when was my last cycle. She commented that the last IUI was technically supposed to be a sure-hitter because everything was looking great. My eggs were the right size, my uterus was lining nicely and the timing was right. Unfortunately it was not meant to be. Since I had to wait out this cycle too, the nurse advised me on the fertile dates based on my cycle and that we should try again naturally and pray that a miracle might happen. We did just that and after those dates, and my husband made me promise not to do a HPT until I really have missed my monthly flow. After that, we didn't put much thought to it but went by our daily life (Yeah, right! As if it the two weeks wait didn't nag at the back of my brain the whole time! Hehe..).

My willpower to not pee on a stick didn't last very long though. A few days before my monthly flow was due, I did a HPT early in the morning. I actually saw a very faint line. It was very faint that I was doubting that it was there and was in between believing, hoping and thinking that maybe it was an evaporation line. I didn't put my hopes up and just went on to work trying not to think about it. The next morning, which was the day that my period was actually due to come, I tried again and a faint line appeared slightly darker than the previous day. A bubble of hope started to rise in my heart.

Peeing on a stick can truly become an addiction. I did the test again on the third day and got a slightly darker line again. I was trying to tone down my bubbling hope by this point because I didn't want to get another false positive like last time. But, at the same time I still couldn't stop peeing on that darned stick! Aaaa! It has become an addiction! My dear husband was on to me by this time and told me not to use another HPT on the next day. I succeeded in doing what he asked but I did the test again on the following day! I just couldn't help myself! This time the line was clearly visible. The next day, I finally succumbed in using my Clearblue stick that had been sitting in my dresser drawer. I got a really thick blue horizontal line, which I never had before this. The lines that I always get were very faint even though they were positives. This time around it was very very clear and thick.

I called up LPPKN the next day to book an appointment for UPT at the clinic to confirm and the kind nurse told me to just walk-in. On that morning when we getting ready to go to the clinic, I did two tests in one go using a Guardian's HPT (which was quite good) and also a Clearblue Digital (just for good measure.. hehe..). When we arrived at the clinic, a little fiasco ensued between a particular stern nurse and the kindly nurse at the Fertility Clinic counter saying I cannot walk-in (huh? Contradiction from the instruction I got over the phone!). She told me to wait so she could check with my doctor (who was in the procedure room carrying out IUIs). She even told me to surrender my waiting number coupon and returned my appointment card (indicating that I will not be tested that day). The kind nurse who advised me came over and told me to just wait a while and then she also went to see my doctor. Then after a few minutes, the stern nurse called out my name, and told me to give back my appointment card and she returned the waiting number coupon to me and told me to wait. I guess I am to be tested after all! Haha! The kind nurse was smiling smugly while the stern nurse was trying to avoid looking at me directly.

After a while, I did the urine test and then waited for the result. After almost all waiting patients cleared out of the waiting room (those with appointments), I was called in to finally see my doctor. He was smiling when we entered his room. As we sat in front of his desk, he broke the news and shook our hands. It was POSITIVE!! He even wrote the result using a red pen in capital letters. We then discussed about the possibility of how I got pregnant naturally in between cycles. My doctor said that maybe the effects of the hormonal injections and medicines that I took was still in my system helping me to be extra fertile which helped me get pregnant. We didn't want to argue because we were over the moon. My husband finally accepted the fact that all the tests I did at home were actually positive! The doctor then gave us advice on how to be extra careful during the first trimester as he didn't want what happened with me last time to occur again. He gave us lots of advice and tips about pregnancy as well. At the end of the consultation session, my doctor told me that I can carry out monthly checkup at any hospital of my choice and need not to come to LPPKN for check ups anymore. They are releasing me. I felt kind of sad but relieved at the same time. Kind of like saying goodbye to an old friend..

Anyway, here we are on our new journey to become parents after 7 years of marriage. I feel very happy but at the same time a bit scared and uncertain. I hope everything goes well with no complications. I am thankful to Allah SWT in giving us a chance to finally have a baby in our life.. Alhamdulillah.. ( ^ _^ )